BAR Thoughts

I don't know what to do about the bar! im shipping off to 'vegas later and the bar exam is my thought. I have less than a year. i will most definitely gain weight then. i will most definitely be in the land of hysteria. If I was born in another life, I don't think I would have been a lawyer. In an American caucasian another life, I would have been a civilized country maiden running her farm in Wyoming, Montana or in the mountains of California.

Im so tired of law school. It drains me. Professors can be vultures and the students can be kibitzers and annoyances but many are winners too,mind you. Law school makes me allergic. Sometimes after a class I just want to rush off to the parking lot right away and go home and sleep and study by my lonesome or ring up my gals for a Starbucks session. After
bar I have so many many plans. among those law school related are: work for a small to a medium sized firm in Ortigas area, lose at least 40 lbs., ponder on the M thing, move abroad.

Since when did I lose my patience for things legal? well, not really just a teeny bit. I
guess during those lower law school years when i felt that the stress was unnerving and relentless. However, by nature, I love to read and study and understand stuff. I grew up in an academic environment where study was important.

The Martini Girlette

mem'ries of a crush

met him 1 1/2 years ago thru Marco, my bro. he had long coppery blond hair, a well chiselled face, a strong jaw and storm blue eyes. the surfer type. extremely tall with a broad chest. A boy from the ocean. wannabe rocker who loved coffee like me. he glows like fire this guy although he doesn't speak a lot. he's the reserved rocker type.

heard from my bro, his friend, that he had moved town but just right in the next town to ours. He's really the most beautiful man I have ever seen in my life. I've had only 2 real crushes in my life and wow, this guy is the real major one. I don't care if Im like 5 years older. he doesn't know that, and after all, it's just a schoolgirl kind of crush. :-) I don't have his picture right now but will post it when I get one. ok got to go now....busy here at the office...

RELIEF

BAGS FOUND!!!!! :) yipee..

Lost Bagahe

On the way to San Francisco my baggage got lost. That single suitcase with my clothes and my law books was my life. This is so unfair. Im supposed to be on Christmas break and here, this is what I get.

The guy from PAL was apologetic but he said I should call their lost and found at the number he gave me and that If my bag turns up beyond Jan. 8, my departure date from here, then they will deliver it to our Madison house but not my Manila address. Ok, that's freaky because that means my folks at the Madison house would have to re-ship all of it to Manila. My Rules of Court is in that baggage. I had highlighted that entire thing complete with mnemonics and all. Feel so bad. there was one other guy whose baggage was also lost on the same flight. he was also speechless like me.

kind of mad post

I understand that people in law school studying the law are expected to be serious or driven people and usually competitive. Im sorry Im not in the 3 categories. But I think you can say Im serious but not law- legalistic serious. at 27 i think studying is so passe. its a thing of my teens and early twenties. working for your money is harder. anyways, I was always a good student. in college i think i did extremely well. and in law school right now I think Im doing pretty OK.

some weird silly person who dresses up too much and has no friends and whom no one minds because of her false airs, thinks Im too flighty and unserious with school. Hello, a person doesn't need to look stressed for her to look fresh and healthy in law school. this person is very weird really. Studying is a mere academic exercise. Pag wala kang diskarte, it's actually useless. i'll never fall into the trap of studying too much at a frantic frantic day class kind of pace. That's why I took up evening LAW classes so that I could run my business and at the same time study law. I think I did fairly well at both although it's quite unconventional. In fact, I think I can get hitched already and put up house on my own, support myself and all.

Im sorry but maybe I inspire some bit of ENVY (inggit) in this person. that's the only reason.
Im sorry that people expect too much from me when Im just like everybody else.