EARLY MAWNIN'

Mad post :-\

last week I found myself trying to explain to some people that I don't like being bothered all the time. these people thought I was mad, but im really not. I told them i'm used to being singled out. I feel like a rag doll sometimes, pinched and poked and all the carino brutal. Dont' judge and you won't be judged. I find my work cathartic. I barely spend anytime chitchatting with people I'm not close to. I want my solitude and my peace. this is my last year in law school. gimme a break.
Last week was rumor week. wow. it was partly true but nt really true and then when I heard it from someone else, It was totally different. not everything everyone says about you, you should care about.

some resolutions to aspire for:

1. lessen irritation.
2. be more matiyaga with stranger sorts.
3. be like a 'mom' in that be more tolerant of differences.
4. ignore petty annoyances.
5. count to 20 before deciding I am mad.
6. always put myself in someone's shoes.
7. be more matiyaga with conversations and banters even if I wnt to be laconic.



I hate it but people really tend to notice me. I want to be left alone. I want my peace and I want my anonymity. is that possible? not really. Law School is like a worst form of high school. I know that there are people who like being talked about, whether good or bad. kasi gusto nila bida sila. I'm the type who doesn't want to be talked about whether GOOD and especially not if bad.

The only way we are going to get along (ikaw yes, ikaw, last week mo pa ko kinukulit) is if you respect my private space. Yes, if you get my urgent rabid need for independence and privacy...Man, i'm tiffed off. leave me alone.

Sent to me yesterday. I like this song. cute to listen to.

beautiful
by GARBAGE

If i was beautiful like you
All the things I would do
Those not so blessedWould be crying out murder
And I'd just laughAnd get away with it too
Like you do
If i was beautiful like you
I would never be at fault
I would walk in the rainBetween the raindrops
Bringing traffic to a halt
But that can never be
That will never, never be
Coz i'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
If i was beautiful like you
I'd be quick to assume
They'd do anything to please me
At night I see their reaction
When you walk into the room
But that can never be
That will never, never be
'cause i'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
BeautifulBeautiful like me
Like meLike me
If i was beautiful like you
I'd have so many friends
Always fighting for my time
To be next in line
So if i hurt one
I wouldn't have to make amends
That can never be
That will never never be
Coz i'm not beautiful like you
I'm not beautiful like you
I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
Beautiful like me
Beautiful like me
I'm beautiful like me
I'm beautiful like me

hmmm...a description..

1. certified homebody.

2. loves solitude. (except with cherished rowdy friends.)

3. shy at core (i'm working on it)

4. likes to: cook, read, listen to music, watch movies and go for brisk walks.

5. likes fashion at times (depends on the shoe brands and makeup brands)

6. LOVES to TRAVEL.

7. ayaw ng makukulit. usually shuns noisy events. noise pollutes...

8. minsan silly, because doesn't want to be too serious.

9. tries to be a healthbuff.

10. treasures order and neatness to a fault.